Lost the best grandpa ever last week. I was closer to him than my dad. He was only 68. I don't want to go into too much but medications he'd been taking for years to treat RA, which I also have, compromised his immune system and left him vulnerable to a rare infection after open heart surgery. It happened so fast, I haven't really even absorbed it yet. He was suffering terribly for the last few weeks. It's hard but at least it didn't last too long and he's not in such horrible pain anymore.
I have some great ideas for artwork. I feel like my long uninspired phase is over. Now I'm just down and physically sick from stress. I really hate this disease. It might take me a while to do anything productive. My presence around this place will probably continue to be pretty unreliable, real life is just getting in the way.
Eh, sorry to leave such a depressing journal entry. More positive stuff will follow.
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Your grandfather sounds like a wonderful, inspiring man and you will have very many wonderful memories to cherish.
It sounds like my great-grandparents would not have been very much older than your grandparents.
My mom's dad would have been 81 when i was born. In my dad's family there are 5 generations alive. I have cousins who are grandparents.
sorry to hear your loss...
and I hope you regain your health and energy soon. I'm sure your grandpa would wishes for your recovery and happiness too.
My loss is probably nothing compare to yours, but I hope you don't see it as inappropriate to mention it here - My hamster just passed away yesterday. I got her from a friend a year ago. She's the sweetest and cutest pet I have had. She lives in my room and I take care of her and play with her daily. She helped me go through my hardest time in college.
She had a cold several weeks ago, but recovered from it (at least I thought). and she was a little cranky over the past weekend, with a little eye problem, but everything else was just fine.. I thought she was allergic to the bedding. I changed bedding for her Monday morning, but that night, she suffered from serious respiratory problem and dead within hours. It was completely unexpected.. I just bought all her fav treats for her, and was planning to get her a bigger playing area after my presentations (in three weeks). and It killed me from inside to see her suffer and leave... I still fall back to habit and turn around to talk to her..
I'm totally uninspired and feel sick.. I think it's okay and normal to take a break. but I need to catch up with real life soon..and I want to remember her with fondness and smiles, not tears.. I don't know how to explain it. but I hope you feel better soon.